One of Those Days

I hate it when I wake up and feel like something is wrong,
something is off and my gut is in a knot
my head feels funny
it's like I'm on the verge of barfing
and the world is going by
sometimes at breakneck speed
and other times
with the speed of tree sap in winter
something is gnawing at the base of my mind
and I feel uneasy
and irritable
and downright pissy
but I'm an adult
so I smile
I put my best foot forward (whichever that is)
and I fight the urge to run away
to hide
to drink and smoke
and forget this feeling
and no body seems to notice that I feel (what is it exactly that I feel)
I'm not sure but nobody notices
and I endure
I guess it's just
one of those days

I've got a verse

Give beer to those who are perishing,
wine to those who are in anguish;
let them drink and forget their poverty
and remember their misery no more – Proverbs 31:6 – 7

so tonight I drink
I’ve got a verse
so screw you
I know what the Spiritually constipated think
and they can go fuck themselves

The pain that I feel cuts to my innermost parts
The pain that I feel belongs to another
but because we are called to love one another
I feel this pain
I feel it like it was my own
and I can’t fix it
and this pisses me off
and makes me sad
So I will drink my our pain away

And tomorrow the sun will rise
and we’ll do this again
But I have a verse…